My journey through life, love, and happiness. With the occasional rant ;)
Posts tagged anxiety
Update!
Aug 4th
I believe I mentioned in my last post that Daniel and I have started a new blog together. That means there will no longer be weekly posts on here. Sorry if that disappoints anyone :O! I will try to post something here periodically, I promise! This will just be personal postings. About ME. Things I’m interested in. Maybe clothes, food, crafts, or all the above… not sure yet 
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I have something that’s been bugging since before I left ‘The Valley‘ and I just want to let the feelings out.
Going Away Party.
I’m not someone who cares much about such parties. I think they’re made mostly for the people left behind. With that being said, I can’t explain why I’m upset about what happened at mine. Maybe I just don’t understand how you can love someone and call yourself their friend but completely turn the party plans around last minute and only visit with the person for 5 minutes before she leaves. I guess that’s it. I just don’t understand how some peoples minds work.
It helps to just say that much so… I think I’m done there. I don’t want to start up any drama again. The stuff that happened on twitter (you heard me… twitter) was bad enough.
I’ve been on a rollercoaster of different emotions since my big life change. Some days I’m really happy and others I have really negative feelings. I’m not used to the fluctuation . All I had to deal with before was mostly frustration and happiness. Of course my emotional changes now may be due to my self-prescribed decrease in medicine. I don’t know why I decided to cut down on Paxil again. I can actually handle the world a lot better when I’m on the full amount. No anxiety > anxiety, believe it or not!
I’m in a major need of adrenaline. Sitting at home doing nothing KILLS me. I’ve been waiting for a job but nothing seems to be happening. I’m about to jump in and apply at McDeath! D: But hey, maybe that’ll get the adrenaline pumping. Otherwise, I’m thinking a concert would be a-mazing!!! That, or thrill rides at Luna Park!
That’s it for now. Ciao, darlings! <3
-Ciera
Week Three With Daniel.
Jul 18th
This week really hasn’t been that eventful. I visited Daniel during lunch early in the week and during that hour we opened my new bank account. When I was at a bus stop on my way to see him, an old Greek lady started talking to me. She was complaining about the ‘cold’ and mentioned how her “village” was always the same temperature throughout the year! I thought it was really funny because she also mentioned that she has been a citizen in AUS for 40 years! The fact that she referred to a village really made me happy. 
In any case, it made me even more interested in Greece. I must travel there one day.
The rest of the week I had this yearning to go out but my anxiety ended up getting the best of me… 
! While out I was going to post some finished bracelets and letters to a couple of friends, hand in some resumes, and possible have some delicious Lord of the Fries or sushi. I hate that I didn’t get that done during the week but anxiety attacks are no fun at all. Oh well! While I stayed inside, I got more crafts done. I also finished the book I’ve been reading, Paper Towns by John Green. It’s a really great book! I didn’t expect it to end the way it did but I wasn’t disappointed either. I made a new friend as well! Well, I consider her a friend. It’s funny how we’ve met through the… years? She’s one of my friend’s girlfriend now and they seem really good together. I hope they can work through any obstacles in their relationship. During the week we get to talk about things while we wait for our boyfriends to get back from work! It’s AWESOME SAUCE, I tell you!! More >
