My journey through life, love, and happiness. With the occasional rant ;)
Thoughts
Update!
Aug 4th
I believe I mentioned in my last post that Daniel and I have started a new blog together. That means there will no longer be weekly posts on here. Sorry if that disappoints anyone :O! I will try to post something here periodically, I promise! This will just be personal postings. About ME. Things I’m interested in. Maybe clothes, food, crafts, or all the above… not sure yet 
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I have something that’s been bugging since before I left ‘The Valley‘ and I just want to let the feelings out.
Going Away Party.
I’m not someone who cares much about such parties. I think they’re made mostly for the people left behind. With that being said, I can’t explain why I’m upset about what happened at mine. Maybe I just don’t understand how you can love someone and call yourself their friend but completely turn the party plans around last minute and only visit with the person for 5 minutes before she leaves. I guess that’s it. I just don’t understand how some peoples minds work.
It helps to just say that much so… I think I’m done there. I don’t want to start up any drama again. The stuff that happened on twitter (you heard me… twitter) was bad enough.
I’ve been on a rollercoaster of different emotions since my big life change. Some days I’m really happy and others I have really negative feelings. I’m not used to the fluctuation . All I had to deal with before was mostly frustration and happiness. Of course my emotional changes now may be due to my self-prescribed decrease in medicine. I don’t know why I decided to cut down on Paxil again. I can actually handle the world a lot better when I’m on the full amount. No anxiety > anxiety, believe it or not!
I’m in a major need of adrenaline. Sitting at home doing nothing KILLS me. I’ve been waiting for a job but nothing seems to be happening. I’m about to jump in and apply at McDeath! D: But hey, maybe that’ll get the adrenaline pumping. Otherwise, I’m thinking a concert would be a-mazing!!! That, or thrill rides at Luna Park!
That’s it for now. Ciao, darlings! <3
-Ciera
One month milestone and week four with Daniel.
Jul 25th
Well, I’ve made it a month in Australia. I knew I would considering my last visit here was 3 months long ! It’s been really great here. Of course there’s been down days but I wouldn’t change anything about it! During the weeks I’ve been doing things to keep my self busy including looking for jobs and visiting Daniel at work. At least one day during the weekend is spent as a ‘date day’. On those days we usually go out all day and enjoy our time together. I’m so thankful we have the weekends to spend so much time together!
This week I spent most of the time at home. Normally that would make me feel a bit upset but I stayed busy enough to feel like I accomplished something. I managed to finish all the friendship bracelets I was working on. I also wrote some letters and made some necklaces for my brother and sister. On Thursday, Daniel’s mum managed to talk me into going grocery shopping with her. We got ingredients for tacos! They were really good 
! Daniel was on a fun go-carting trip that his office does. I wish I could have gone! On Friday, I went into the city to visit my man at work. While together, we set up his part of our joint bank account. Then we went to the post office so I could send everything I worked on. After that, we went and got lunch at KFC. So healthy, right?! More >
LDR: soon to be LTR :)
Jun 18th
That’s right! In just a few more days I will no longer be in a long distance relationship! I’m heading to Australia to be with Daniel for a year.
The nine months, that are now behind us, have been so difficult for me! Before we met, chatting was always a fun experience. After meeting and spending three months together, I started getting really frustrated and taking things he said the wrong way. I partly blame the distance. I was so unhappy that I couldn’t be there; my overall mood has changed from relaxed and happy, to stressed and discontent. I miss the way I felt before. Although, I have faith that when I’m there my mood will change drastically again.
More has gone on in life, as well. Along with the stress of the distance: I live in this disgusting house (daily stressor); my family has made me feel used, neglected, and just disrespected; and my moms ex-husband, and my brother and sisters father, had an incident that has left him with no movement on his right side and possible one blind eye. Sound like a good nine months to you?! Now, I know I could have things a lot worse… it just feels like bad things have been happening one things after another, after another, for the past three years. More >
Oh, hello there fellow person!
Jan 19th
Hello blog readers! I have a lot on my mind tonight and wanted to see if writing a post would help. It’s almost impossible to find a place to start. Hmmm…
Today I spent some time with my best friend, Tanya. The last time I talked to/saw her was about 7 months ago. It was really nice to catch up with her. I love that we can lose contact for months, or years, and still be as close as we are. It just shows how strong friendships can be 
I got a job at a Papa John’s that just opened here! I be deliverin’ pizzas now! xD I’m so glad I finally have a job! It’s not what I’d like to be doing but the hours are good, tips are nice, and I love most of the people I work with I’ve met some people there that I hope I know for a long time. It’s weird that I like almost everything about it, but I don’t necessarily enjoy working there. More >
