My journey through life, love, and happiness. With the occasional rant ;)
Ciera
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Update!
Aug 4th
I believe I mentioned in my last post that Daniel and I have started a new blog together. That means there will no longer be weekly posts on here. Sorry if that disappoints anyone :O! I will try to post something here periodically, I promise! This will just be personal postings. About ME. Things I’m interested in. Maybe clothes, food, crafts, or all the above… not sure yet 
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I have something that’s been bugging since before I left ‘The Valley‘ and I just want to let the feelings out.
Going Away Party.
I’m not someone who cares much about such parties. I think they’re made mostly for the people left behind. With that being said, I can’t explain why I’m upset about what happened at mine. Maybe I just don’t understand how you can love someone and call yourself their friend but completely turn the party plans around last minute and only visit with the person for 5 minutes before she leaves. I guess that’s it. I just don’t understand how some peoples minds work.
It helps to just say that much so… I think I’m done there. I don’t want to start up any drama again. The stuff that happened on twitter (you heard me… twitter) was bad enough.
I’ve been on a rollercoaster of different emotions since my big life change. Some days I’m really happy and others I have really negative feelings. I’m not used to the fluctuation . All I had to deal with before was mostly frustration and happiness. Of course my emotional changes now may be due to my self-prescribed decrease in medicine. I don’t know why I decided to cut down on Paxil again. I can actually handle the world a lot better when I’m on the full amount. No anxiety > anxiety, believe it or not!
I’m in a major need of adrenaline. Sitting at home doing nothing KILLS me. I’ve been waiting for a job but nothing seems to be happening. I’m about to jump in and apply at McDeath! D: But hey, maybe that’ll get the adrenaline pumping. Otherwise, I’m thinking a concert would be a-mazing!!! That, or thrill rides at Luna Park!
That’s it for now. Ciao, darlings! <3
-Ciera
One month milestone and week four with Daniel.
Jul 25th
Well, I’ve made it a month in Australia. I knew I would considering my last visit here was 3 months long ! It’s been really great here. Of course there’s been down days but I wouldn’t change anything about it! During the weeks I’ve been doing things to keep my self busy including looking for jobs and visiting Daniel at work. At least one day during the weekend is spent as a ‘date day’. On those days we usually go out all day and enjoy our time together. I’m so thankful we have the weekends to spend so much time together!
This week I spent most of the time at home. Normally that would make me feel a bit upset but I stayed busy enough to feel like I accomplished something. I managed to finish all the friendship bracelets I was working on. I also wrote some letters and made some necklaces for my brother and sister. On Thursday, Daniel’s mum managed to talk me into going grocery shopping with her. We got ingredients for tacos! They were really good 
! Daniel was on a fun go-carting trip that his office does. I wish I could have gone! On Friday, I went into the city to visit my man at work. While together, we set up his part of our joint bank account. Then we went to the post office so I could send everything I worked on. After that, we went and got lunch at KFC. So healthy, right?! More >
Week Three With Daniel.
Jul 18th
This week really hasn’t been that eventful. I visited Daniel during lunch early in the week and during that hour we opened my new bank account. When I was at a bus stop on my way to see him, an old Greek lady started talking to me. She was complaining about the ‘cold’ and mentioned how her “village” was always the same temperature throughout the year! I thought it was really funny because she also mentioned that she has been a citizen in AUS for 40 years! The fact that she referred to a village really made me happy. 
In any case, it made me even more interested in Greece. I must travel there one day.
The rest of the week I had this yearning to go out but my anxiety ended up getting the best of me… 
! While out I was going to post some finished bracelets and letters to a couple of friends, hand in some resumes, and possible have some delicious Lord of the Fries or sushi. I hate that I didn’t get that done during the week but anxiety attacks are no fun at all. Oh well! While I stayed inside, I got more crafts done. I also finished the book I’ve been reading, Paper Towns by John Green. It’s a really great book! I didn’t expect it to end the way it did but I wasn’t disappointed either. I made a new friend as well! Well, I consider her a friend. It’s funny how we’ve met through the… years? She’s one of my friend’s girlfriend now and they seem really good together. I hope they can work through any obstacles in their relationship. During the week we get to talk about things while we wait for our boyfriends to get back from work! It’s AWESOME SAUCE, I tell you!! More >
Week two with Daniel (and company).
Jul 10th
Today I spent a wonderful day with Daniel, his sister, and his mom. We had lunch at a nice buffet and then got some shopping in. We had to get some ingredients for delicious cookies that we made later in the day. Mmmmm, cookies!
They turned out soo well! They were meant to be plain lemon cookies, with icing but we decided to make them more exciting with RAINBOW (++death) colors! Not only do they look good but they taste delicious as well!
After two weeks of waiting, I finally got my tax file number (TFN). A TFN is similar to a social security number (SSN) in America, for those who didn’t know. I feel better about applying for jobs now. I also got a packet for the bank account I opened. My TFN is useful for that as well. Not nearly as much as it is for jobs, though.
I’ve finished a few things for friends, just need to post them now! I’ll have to do that this week. I should also apply for some more jobs and visit Daniel more. 
Keep a smile on your face!
-Ciera
Week one with Daniel.
Jul 3rd
Today, Daniel and I went out to do some shopping and just spend the day together. We walked through IKEA to look at furniture. I loved doing that. It got me very excited for the possibilities the future brings. IKEA didn’t have anything we could afford, and needed, so we decided to stop by another store to look at dressers and bookshelves. We had to go via train and while waiting there, a young man gave me a compliment:
You look very pretty for a… bigger woman.
I’m not one to get many compliments from strangers so it made me feel very good. The stranger also told Daniel he was very lucky to have me but he already knew that! 
Anyways, Daniel and I made our way to the other store and purchased a bookshelf. YAY! A place for my two books I brought here >_<! Hopefully Daniel will manage to fill up the rest.
I’ve been here, in Australia, for a week now. It seems as if I never left! I haven’t been up to much since I got here, though. Mostly just sitting around on the computer until Daniel gets off work. I applied for my TFN so I am able to apply for jobs once I work on my resume. It’ll be good to get out of the house. My life will begin to get more exciting!
Anyways, I have no idea what else to write and I have lost almost all my concentration. Ciao for now! <3
LDR: soon to be LTR :)
Jun 18th
That’s right! In just a few more days I will no longer be in a long distance relationship! I’m heading to Australia to be with Daniel for a year.
The nine months, that are now behind us, have been so difficult for me! Before we met, chatting was always a fun experience. After meeting and spending three months together, I started getting really frustrated and taking things he said the wrong way. I partly blame the distance. I was so unhappy that I couldn’t be there; my overall mood has changed from relaxed and happy, to stressed and discontent. I miss the way I felt before. Although, I have faith that when I’m there my mood will change drastically again.
More has gone on in life, as well. Along with the stress of the distance: I live in this disgusting house (daily stressor); my family has made me feel used, neglected, and just disrespected; and my moms ex-husband, and my brother and sisters father, had an incident that has left him with no movement on his right side and possible one blind eye. Sound like a good nine months to you?! Now, I know I could have things a lot worse… it just feels like bad things have been happening one things after another, after another, for the past three years. More >
Oh, hello there fellow person!
Jan 19th
Hello blog readers! I have a lot on my mind tonight and wanted to see if writing a post would help. It’s almost impossible to find a place to start. Hmmm…
Today I spent some time with my best friend, Tanya. The last time I talked to/saw her was about 7 months ago. It was really nice to catch up with her. I love that we can lose contact for months, or years, and still be as close as we are. It just shows how strong friendships can be
I got a job at a Papa John’s that just opened here! I be deliverin’ pizzas now! xD I’m so glad I finally have a job! It’s not what I’d like to be doing but the hours are good, tips are nice, and I love most of the people I work with I’ve met some people there that I hope I know for a long time. It’s weird that I like almost everything about it, but I don’t necessarily enjoy working there. More >
It’s time to fade away into the world of music ♪♫
Dec 2nd
Right now, I just feel tired. Mostly of family, I think. They just got home an hour ago and I spent maybe 5 minutes with them? And when I escaped I felt annoyed and stressed. I really wish I wouldn’t feel this way almost all the time. The only person I can stand in this house (still for a limited time, but longer than the rest) is my sister. Hopefully she doesn’t start annoying me as much as the others ! I don’t know what I’d do then.
Anyways, now I am listening to music and trying not to be here while still being here. I can’t wait for a new life! Really. I am soooo excited to just ‘start over’. I feel like I’m just surviving until then. Then, when I start living! Gahhh! I’m so impatient sometimes. XD
Hmm, something I’m starting to realize: Parents are right sometimes . Did you ever hear, “Your friends now may not be your friends forever, even if it feels like that now.”? Haha! My dad said that a lot but I never believed him. I thought the friendships I’ve had for 10+ years would always be, ya’ know? My views sure have changed recently. I am definitely not as close as I used to be with my two best friends I’ve had for about 12 years now. I haven’t talked to one of them for 6 months now because she hasn’t responded to any of my messages . The other friend; I think we will be friends for a long time still but I just don’t feel as close as we were in our younger years. Mmm… blah! Just, blaaaah. That’s how I feel right now. More >
Is it my turn?!
Nov 21st
I want to complain. Can I, can I, CAN I?! I guess there really isn’t anyone to stop me. Except everyone… I can’t do it. Not now… I have 3-4 people who understand me. I can live with that for now. I would like to say thanks to you guys I really appreciate you! Perhaps I’ll share my feelings with the world later.
